I Don't Know What to Title this Post.
Look, I am going to be blunt here. Blunt and honest and completely frank. I have never, ever, openly talked about this, and honestly it is hard. But I am at a time in my life where I am recognizing the things that need to be changed and implementing plans on how to change them. So, here it goes.
I am obese. I have been for as long as I can remember. When I was a teen, I was told I'd grow out of it. But I didn't. It's a problem that has plagued me my whole life. Though it may not have been a primary focus or concern, it was always there, lurking. Silent, but present.
I know that I have been incredibly fortunate. I was never, as far as I recall, bullied or teased about my weight in any of the numerous places I lived and attended church. I don't even think my sister teased me about it. I have also never suffered any true adverse effects on my health because of my weight. I do not have diabetes, which I am especially thankful for due to my family history. The worst problems I have are that I am out of shape and I have poor knees. Even then, that is due in part to patellofemoral syndrome (link), which may or may not be a result of my weight (the doctor who diagnosed me, a joint/knee specialist, did not say that. It likely is more from my gender than anything else). The fact that I have gone this long without any major or even minor issues is really a miracle. I know I am one of the few who are overweight, but healthy.
But everyone has their limit. Nothing can be ignored forever. Thankfully, there was no major disaster that brought this on. No sudden diagnosis or accident or meltdown. It's just...time. Time to make a change and really do something about it.
This is not the first time I have tried to lose weight. My life is littered with attempts, some more successful than others, though all have been short term and not lasted. I cannot guarantee this will be any different, except that for the first time, I am not really doing a specific diet or workout program or even an actual specific weight goal.
My plan is to basically eat healthier and use good portion control and to workout daily. For informational purposes, I will be using the website Blogilates as well as whatever equipment is going to be at my new apartment complex. But I am not going to stress about what the scale says or count how many pounds I've lost. For one, I don't have a scale. But also because it's not about that for me. It's about how I feel. I want to have a healthy body and I want to feel good about myself. The moment I start worrying about a number on a scale, that will be it. I have heard several stories lately about people who are so focused on how much they weigh that they start to get extreme and start to slip into eating disorders and are never happy with themselves. I don't currently hate myself, so I am hoping I will be able to avoid that.
Let me make myself perfectly clear here. I am doing this for me. No one else. I am doing this to make myself happy and to take care of my own body and make a better future for myself. TO THAT END, I do not want any advice, no matter how well its intention, on dieting, working out, or anything. If you have questions as to what I am doing, contact me and I will happily tell you. I will probably not post any pictures of the progress, as this is a personal venture. I will gladly accept well wishes and encouragement. Anyone who wants to join me in this journey is more than welcome! Working together is always the best way to get anything done!
Love to you all!
I am obese. I have been for as long as I can remember. When I was a teen, I was told I'd grow out of it. But I didn't. It's a problem that has plagued me my whole life. Though it may not have been a primary focus or concern, it was always there, lurking. Silent, but present.
I know that I have been incredibly fortunate. I was never, as far as I recall, bullied or teased about my weight in any of the numerous places I lived and attended church. I don't even think my sister teased me about it. I have also never suffered any true adverse effects on my health because of my weight. I do not have diabetes, which I am especially thankful for due to my family history. The worst problems I have are that I am out of shape and I have poor knees. Even then, that is due in part to patellofemoral syndrome (link), which may or may not be a result of my weight (the doctor who diagnosed me, a joint/knee specialist, did not say that. It likely is more from my gender than anything else). The fact that I have gone this long without any major or even minor issues is really a miracle. I know I am one of the few who are overweight, but healthy.
But everyone has their limit. Nothing can be ignored forever. Thankfully, there was no major disaster that brought this on. No sudden diagnosis or accident or meltdown. It's just...time. Time to make a change and really do something about it.
This is not the first time I have tried to lose weight. My life is littered with attempts, some more successful than others, though all have been short term and not lasted. I cannot guarantee this will be any different, except that for the first time, I am not really doing a specific diet or workout program or even an actual specific weight goal.
My plan is to basically eat healthier and use good portion control and to workout daily. For informational purposes, I will be using the website Blogilates as well as whatever equipment is going to be at my new apartment complex. But I am not going to stress about what the scale says or count how many pounds I've lost. For one, I don't have a scale. But also because it's not about that for me. It's about how I feel. I want to have a healthy body and I want to feel good about myself. The moment I start worrying about a number on a scale, that will be it. I have heard several stories lately about people who are so focused on how much they weigh that they start to get extreme and start to slip into eating disorders and are never happy with themselves. I don't currently hate myself, so I am hoping I will be able to avoid that.
Let me make myself perfectly clear here. I am doing this for me. No one else. I am doing this to make myself happy and to take care of my own body and make a better future for myself. TO THAT END, I do not want any advice, no matter how well its intention, on dieting, working out, or anything. If you have questions as to what I am doing, contact me and I will happily tell you. I will probably not post any pictures of the progress, as this is a personal venture. I will gladly accept well wishes and encouragement. Anyone who wants to join me in this journey is more than welcome! Working together is always the best way to get anything done!
Love to you all!
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